last night i dreamed that patrick and i went to sakeji. in my dream, janet was showing us around newly renovated dorms, and showed us our room, right in the spot between janette's room and the boys' dorm - in my dream, this space was janet's living room, and she was giving it up for us. we put our stuff down and went back to the main sitting room, where we had snacks and chilled with the staff, and could see the kids playing outside. more and more staff kept coming into the room and i was thinking - oh no, there are so many people here, we should have saved our money and bought tickets when there was a shortage! i wonder if we can return them? but then i realized, having already used the tickets, there was no way we could return them (thinking in dreams is a whole other ballgame). i noticed that the kids playing outside had all become really fat - had all gained a hundred pounds at least and i couldn't recognize any of them, except for busiwa, who was still skinny, sitting by the window of the main sitting room, begging for snacks. margie was trying to share with her, without making it obvious. then patrick and i went to bed, and i actually woke up from my dream, but looking at the closet doors in our new apartment couldn't figure out what they were - my brain was still back at sakeji, and i really really thought we must have actually gone to zambia, and it wasn't a dream after all, and at that moment i must have drifted back to sleep and thought i had a conversation with patrick about really being in zambia, and he assured me that, yes, we really were there.
it was pretty surprising, and disappointing, to wake up for real when the phone rang.
boo.
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